When you’re on the last lap of the race, when there’s 30 seconds left in the match — when it’s the last drive in the 4th quarter — and you’re exhausted, spent, and all you want to do is quit… you have to suck it up, dig deep, and give it everything you got.
It’s time to hustle. You have to sprint. Leave everything you have on the field.
It’s in this moment when champions are born.
The daily journal thing was fun while it lasted. But quickly lost it’s luster. I especially didn’t enjoy the weekly newsletter I was sending.
So I’ve decided to take a different approach.
I’m still going to be journaling on a regular basis. And I’m going to post my entries once a week rather than daily.
The virtual summit is coming fast.
There’s a lot on the line.
Everything is about to change.
Stressed Out – 01/14/17
I’m feeling stressed and exhausted. It’s different though. Like I know I can handle it. I don’t have anxiety. I know it’s going to be ok.
I’m just beat.
I feel like I might have bit off more than I can chew. I’m not sure how long I can keep this up.
I’m so tired. I probably won’t post this today — I’ll just add it to tomorrow’s post.
I desperately need a break.
But I’m not gonna get one anytime soon.
I’m in the trenches now — in the dirt. I can’t afford breaks or a timeout. This is it. This is when it gets real.
Today I took a step back from my work and went to the clouds. To get a bigger perspective on things.
I’m starting to feel like jumping fullsteam ahead with Seekins Media while in the middle of launching a virtual summit and revamping the content marketing strategy for my blog might not be the best choice.
Instead, I’m thinking that I’ll hire my brother to help me with Launch Your Dream — mainly with social media management and possibly with creating content as well.
I’m not going to stop Seekins Media completely.
What I think I’m going to do is get like 1-3 steady clients. So that I can hire Gabe to do a significant amount of work.
Gabe will still get work and he’ll be able to focus on learning and improving his skill.
And at Seekins Media we’ll be able to focus our energy on getting incredible results for a select few clients, build up testimonials and case studies — and then scale up, build a team, and get more clients later down the road.
It just makes so much more sense.
Maybe I will just post this now.
No, I’ll wait.
Maybe I’ll do an experiment this week.
What if instead of publishing a post every day, I published a journal once a week?
I can still write every day, and just compile everything into one weekly post.
I think that makes more sense.
And then as far as the weekly newsletter goes… I guess I can just figure that out later. Maybe I’ll keep it up, or maybe instead I’ll just send out an email whenever I publish something on my blog or Launch Your Dream TV — like I was before. But this time there will be 1 more email a week, because of the Daily Journals. I think that makes sense.
Jeeze. This Daily Journal thing is helping a lot more than I ever expected it to.
Battle To The Death – 01/16/17
The last 3 days have been miserable. All 6 of my WordPress sites were hacked and infected with malware.
I couldn’t afford the prices of premium services.
But I found a way to take care of it.
I’m so exhausted.
I don’t really have the energy to write more about it here. But I’m writing a detailed blog post about it, and tips for what to do if you get hacked or infected.
But I did have a good day today. I’m pretty sure my sites are cleaned and protected.
I had lunch with my mom.
I got some more work for Gabe.
And I wrote a blog post.
Tomorrow I have an interview with Sue Dunlevie.
And then an interview the day after with John Lee Dumas.
Always Forward – 01/21/17
I’ve definitely skipped several days. And I don’t feel bad about it. I’ve been working my ass off lately.
Chelsea has been feeling sick. So I’ve been trying to help out as much as a I can — between that work, and everything else that’s been going on, I just haven’t found the time to sit down and journal.
Gabe and I have been making slow and steady progress with Seekins Media. I’ve been training him for several weeks on things like blogging and social media. We got our first 2 clients — mom and nana.
I’m mainly focused on the Job To Blog Summit right now. Then by the time Gabe has had a month or 2 of training, we’ll probably get an influx of clients. So far I’ve recorded 5 interviews. I sent out my last batch of invites last night (on a Friday — I know probably not the best time but it needed to get done). I think I sent out an even 60 invites. I’ve already gotten 7 or so yeses, a couple nos, and I should get some more yeses on Monday. I also beefed up the landing page a little bit the other day. And I’ve been editing the interviews and getting them ready for launch. I’m so stoked. I can’t wait.
My health seems to be doing better. It’s still a challenge every day. But I’m noticing that the days seem to get easier. And I’m starting to feel like I have more energy.
I’m getting really excited for the summit.
And I can’t wait for what’s next.
This is going to be an incredible year.
Taking A Break – 01/28/17
Today I’m forcing myself to take a break. I was planning on working, but I think I need this. I’ve been working non-stop for who knows how long — sometimes for like 18 hours a day.
My good friend Ian sent me a message the day before yesterday and asked if I’d like to go hiking. I almost said no, so that I could keep working. But I thought about it, and my wife said I should take a break. And I agreed.
I’m really glad I did. We went hiking this morning. It was a good hike. It was also good to catch up and talk life and future plans.
I’m still tempted to get back to work now that I’m home, but I’m going to force myself to rest. I think writing in my journal is a good compromise. It’s very relaxing, gives me some time to rest, and it also creates some content.
I think I might still work on some photos and video from today though. Maybe just a little bit. And then I’ll make sure to get some real rest and do nothing for the evening — maybe read or watch a movie.
It’s good to get rest. But I hate being lazy. Every once and awhile I like to do absolutely nothing. But usually I like to get something done even while I’m resting — usually something to do with art. Like photo’s, video, or writing.
I really want to get into music and dancing this year too.
I want to consume less media when resting and instead create more art. I think it’s way more rejuvenating than just vegging out and playing video games.
I think working out can be a form of rest as well. I’ve always loved sports and fitness. Though I haven’t been very active for years because of Crohn’s Disease.
I’m starting to get better. And I can’t wait to start working out again. It’s going to feel amazing. It’s going to do wonders for both my body and soul.
Thing’s are about to get good.
But I’m not going to get into that, because I’m taking a break.
Flare Up – 02/07/17
Crohn’s can be so unpredictable sometimes. It’s hard to explain. I’ve been more aggressive lately with healing my body. And when I do that, sometimes — most of the time — the pain gets worse. Simply because the more I heal the more deep wounds are revealed.
I’m kinda in a weird situation. Because I’ve basically found a way to maintain Crohn’s with diet and natural medicines.
But I have deep wounds and scars from 10 years of being sick. So that’s what I’m mainly focused on right now — healing those scars. And it’s painful.
So I tend to go through different phases of rest and intense healing.
This past week or so has been intense . I’ve been applying different medicines like 24/7. And It hurts — bad.
It’s the kind of pain that makes you shake.
It’s nearly impossible to concentrate.
I think I’m making progress though. I hope I’m making progress.
Today I’m getting back on a liquid diet. Maybe for just this week, or maybe for the rest of the month — who knows. My body just needs a break.
It’s extremely difficult to prioritize my health, deal with so much pain, and build a business at the same time. Not to mention now there’s a baby coming.
I don’t really have a choice though.
If I don’t take care of my body I’ll end up in the hospital — probably have to have my colon removed.
If I don’t focus on my work than we’ll end up on the streets.
Plus with a baby coming, I need to take care of both of these things. I need to support my family. And I need to be healthy so that I can help Chelsea with the baby.
But one way or another…
I’m going to figure it out.